I feel like my mind is just a poison.

Confusion

I think I'm feeling too many things... one day I think I'm so in love and want to marry him. The next I feel like I have no idea what he and I are doing anymore, that we don't really want to be together, that we don't have our spark anymore... I want to get back to where we used to be.. adoring eachother, completely consumed by how in love we are with eachother.

And I just don't know who I am anymore. I feel completely stripped. Like I'm just this empty vessel. All I do is watch TV and live in this box.. why? What happened to things I used to enjoy doing? Why do I no longer care? I just feel so lost.