Ideal daughter

Okay, so for many years now my parents have occasionally compared me to their friend's daughter, who is almost my age. I'm about a year older than her. They'd say stuff like, ___ is such a good girl, she's doing this, she wears the hijab, she prays, she works, blah blah blah. The thing is, I actually LIKE her, and they're making me resent her from their yapping.

I'm bringing this up because I just heard about my uni application, I've been told that it's on hold pending a document I need to attach (my results from the entrance exam) but it's impossible for me to attach these documents because the entrance exam is expensive and I can't take it right now. Now, I knew this would happen so I'm not shocked or anything. So I just told my dad, and he asks if I called ___ and I said no, why? and he tells me, well, she's trying to get into nursing too. You should do what she's doing.
*deep breath*

He has no idea what course she is doing. I am aware of what options are available to me. I am not sitting on my ass and wasting valuable time by choice, but because of circumstances.

**End of bitchy rant**

"Fun"

So.. since my last post I have learnt that thanks to technicalities I cannot graduate this year. Another big set back. Since then I have withdrawn from all of my classes and applied to university. My best option is to apply for this nursing diploma since it's a pathway into the bachelors, and it takes a year off it, too. So I've applied. If all goes well I start in February. The mid year intake (what I applied for) starts up in July but I'm pretty sure before I can be accepted I need to sit this entrance exam which is $60 and I can't spend what little funds I have at the moment on that. So if all goes well, I re-apply in Sept and start in Feb.

In the mean time, I've been sitting at home doing absolutely nothing: watching shows, films. Seriously, I hardly leave my house and that is just the norm now. Life is so short, why am I wasting mine? I'm so bored all the time. I suggested to a friend maybe I should start my TESOL course, give me something to do. He asked me if I had thought of doing something fun, something without pressure. And I literally realised I don't even know what is fun to me anymore.

I am in such a rut.